it might just all be a facade

Saturday, May 31, 2008;

♥ 5/31/2008 11:24:00 PM

Will i ever see
You smiling back at me>>

~~Miss liang~~ Mrs Tan &Mr Tan wedding today! :D
They look sweet together. (:
This wedding is such a sweet surprise! Hokay, maybe it isn't considered as a 'Surprise', since our 3 classes both knew the wedding is a sooner-or-later thing. :D
We all sang hillsongs. That's what i miss. :D I miss everyone gathering together, bowing our heads in prayers &singing. Although i'm not a christian, but the feeling's so nice &home-ly. Heh.
It feels like, home.
Hah, seeing ms liang in the gown makes all the girls wanna get married soon, i bet! :D

Pictures are limited. So, i'll wait for selene to send me the photos.
I didn't bring my camera. Kind of regretted it. :\
Brandon Sel Chanel Nirma &i sat at some 'out-of-nowher' place during lunch reception. Hahah. I think we're acting like some outcasts. =p
Left for holland village's swensens. Brandon claimed that holland area was his kampong. So we trusted him with the directions. In the end, we ended up in Sixth avenue, lost. ): Hahah. &from swensens, we downgraded to KAP's mac. :\
But it's okay. At least we found some seats to sit down, &chat. (:

I miss my friends! Really. Although i'm feeling kind of drifted from most of them.
&almost all are friends whom i was really close to, in the past.
But seeing all of them again, gethering together. It's just so familiar. [:
Haha. Retarded moments spent with Brandon Chanel &Nirma count too!

By the way, i think my heels just killed me today.
G'nights!

I'm falling straight for you;

Labels: Miss liang and Mr tan wedding service

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Friday, May 30, 2008;

♥ 5/30/2008 09:44:00 PM

Now that's all said &done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up then tear me down
Like an old abandoned house>>

I'M TALKING TO NIRMA ON THE PHONE NOW.
IT FEELS LIKE THAT THOSE DAYS IN SECONDARY SCHOOL.
I MISS HER. I MISS THE RECESS CLIQUE.
I MISS SEC 4E06. I MISS SEC 2C04.
I MISS THE FAIRSIANS WHO STOOD BY ME DURING THE LAST DECADE.
(fullstop)

/edit
Everything seems so _____-up lately.
Every single thing seems to revolve around this word 'Superficial'.
I don't really know what else to say.
I just need people to be more 'Physically Present', that's all.
Is that really alot to ask? :l

keep my sanity;

Labels: misses

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Thursday, May 29, 2008;

♥ 5/29/2008 10:11:00 PM

But no matter what you'll never see me cry>>

"If you don't bother caring as much as i do.
I seriously don't know why i care so much."
; That's the latest reason i've been repeating to myself.
My mind got the message. Now, i'll wait til my heart gets it.

&it'd better soon get it!
Upsetting, disappointing things going on around me. But there're happy things going on at the same time too.
They are more worthy of my time &efforts. (:

When everything's meant to be broken
I iust want you to know, who i am;

Labels: message to heart

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008;

♥ 5/28/2008 10:35:00 PM

That was quite a show, very entertaining
But it's over now>>

Rihanna's Take A Bow is stuck in my head. Hahah. I don't know why. (:

Anyways, ytd's tanning session was such an unproductive one. ]: It got sarah &i so upset! )':
Manda &sarah said the tuna + omelette sandwich i made was nice! (: Hahah.
So, anyways. We made our way to the beach. At the tram station, sarah said she saw some jj people, so we were like trying our best to make ourselves invisible. Hahah!
&the beach isn't crowded! :D To our joy.
But suddenly, the weather took a 180degrees change &it started with a drizzle, then becoming a rain. :\
There're three guys near us on the beach. One was freaking us out cos he started cursing &swearing at the sky when the dark clouds formed above us. Really, he had this gigantic tatoo on his arm. We wanted to move to the other side of the beach cos of him. Hahah.
We went vivo cos of the rain, had some uber disgustinggggg Oirigini. You should have seen our faces! We were like struggling. Eeyer.
We walked around for awhile, with manda tying to get sarah to pay for everything. Haha! :D
Manda left. Mr Sun came out. Sarah &i decided to get ourselves back into sentosa.
Walao! Sentosa cheat people! We got to buy another ticket to get in. :(
Hahah, we managed to stay in the sun for awhile longer than just now. (: We both fell asleep!
Then the whole cycle repeats itself. The dark clouds came back, &we rushed off. ):
UGH!

Not alot of photos cos my cam batt's flat. ]:

See the dark clouds! ):

Us leaving sentosa after the unproductive tanning session.

Sarah &i after the slightly productive session.

Walking back to the tram station in the rain. See that towel? I refused to get myself wet again, after the bath. Hahah. :D

Last two photos of the day.

Hahah. I don't feel burnt, which i normally will after tanning with the girls. ): I feel, so disappointment &sad.

But anyways, its fun hanging around with the girls. (: I found myelf laughing at every retarded things said. I found myself smiling at every action the two girls did.
&i found myself enjoying every second with them, even though the weather's such a disappointment.
:D

Everyday, with things happening around us. Our moods do get affected, &influenced, in some way or another. Sure, there are things which make us really sad &disappointed. But we can't deny that some things around us do lift up our moods, &cheer us up. (:
These are not my own opinions. These are facts. [:
I'm tying hard to get myself out of the sadness which i crumbled into &stayed in there for a really long time. I'm getting myself out of it, &now, i'm inching myself into the happiness around me. (:
I'm staying happy.
Cos being happy is healthy!

Labels: happy is healthy, tanning session (unproductive)

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Monday, May 26, 2008;

♥ 5/26/2008 06:13:00 PM

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now &then &just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend i'm OK
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
&having so much to say
&watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
&not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you
Everywhere I go, but I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile
When I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed
Living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words
That I saved in my heart that I left unspoken

>
What hurts the most, was being so close
&having so much to say
&watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
&not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most, was being so close
&having so much to say
&watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
&not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Labels: What hurts the most

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

;

♥ 5/26/2008 07:15:00 AM

I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss
&a prince i'm hopingcomes with this>>

Too many things happening now.
Not just in my life, but in the rest of the world.
Suddenly, an individual's strength seems so weak &insignificant. Suddenly, it seems as though all we could do is to look at them with pitiful stares. Suddenly, the weight of the world seems to collapse upon each &every one of our shoulder.
&suddenly, it seems as though nothing can relieve us of this pain.

On a lighter note, Mr June's still here. It's not a dream afterall!
I'm going to wake up 0545 tmr morning. Then i'm going to stare straight at my alarm clock, which always deprives me of sufficient sleep. I'm going to smile wickedly &laugh loudly at it.
I'm going to announce 'I'M SLEEPING! &YOU'RE DEFINITELY NOT GOING TO GET IN MY WAY!' Then i'll silence it, before marching back to my bed proudly, to sleep.
:D

Oh no, but i told myself to wake up for a morning run tmr!

This feelings; in my heart i'll hide.

Labels: june hols, the world vs us

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Saturday, May 24, 2008;

♥ 5/24/2008 08:16:00 PM

School's out
Scream &shout>>

I still cant believe school made all j2s stayed back til as late as 1845 on the last day of school for GP common test. ):
I was falling alseep while writing my essay, seriously! Hahah, i have no idea what i was writing. I feel that i'm trying to squeeze some brain juice out of my already dried up micro-brain.
&paper 2! UGH. ):
Hokay, it's all over now.
Hello Mr June Holidays! Stay around a little longer than usual, would you? (;

Anyways, here's an extract from the handout which mr leow gave to my class.
: "Life is difficult.
Most do not fully see this truth that life is difficult. Instead they moan more or less incessntly, nosily or subtly, about the enormity of their problems, their burdens, and their difficulties as if life were generally easy, as if life should be easy. They voice their belief, nosily or subtly, that their difficiulties represent a unique kind of affliction that should not be and that has somehow been especially visited upon them, or else upon their families, their tribe, their nation, their race, or even their species, and not upon others. I know about this moaning because i have done my share.
Life is a series of problems. Do we want to moan about them or solve them? Do we want to teach our children to solve them?
What makes life difficult is that the process of confronting and solving problems is a painful one. Problems, depending upon their nature, evoke in us frustration or grief or sadness or loneliness or guilt or regret or anger or fear or anxiety or anguish or despair. These are uncomfortable feelings, often very uncomfortable, often as painful as any kind of physical pain. Indeed, i is because of the pain that events or conflicts engender in us all that we call them problems. And since life poses an endless series of problems, life is always difficult and is full of pain as well as joy."
This is just a part of the whole article.
Well, pretty meaningful actually. (: Although i feel that all it talks about is just theories, after theories.

Anyways, i hope the date with Mr Sun &the girls on 27th is confirmed! :D :D :D
&once again. Mr June is here.
&we all ought to get settled down &start hitting the books. :\
Best of luck everyone! (:

Sometimes, it's inferior that overwhelmed me.
Too much feelings &emotions stuck in my throat. &i can't find any ways to force them out;

Labels: june hols, Mr sun(exclamation mark)

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Friday, May 23, 2008;

♥ 5/23/2008 06:49:00 AM

He said he's so in love
He finally got it right
Wonder if he knows
He's all i think about at night>>

An hour bus ride from jj down to hq.
Less than 5mins stay in hq, to collect my external cca record.
Another one hour bus ride home.

My clique seems splattered. Hahah, i dunno why i used this word, it just came to my mind.
Well, back to point.
Girls skipping lessons, to go lib to sleep/study for tests/finish up mr leow's assignments.
Guys either skipping lessons, or being anti-social, cos they're currently hooked onto this Capturing Fishes Game.
But it's hokay! I love all of them still. (:

Gp common test tmr, after school. :\ UGH
I was laughing like nuts just now, while msging jerry &zhihao. Esp zhihao. Hahah. :D
Search mission's over! :D
Credits goes to aaron &zhihao.
Tell me again why i have such funny friends. (:

June hols coming.
I'm not really feeling elated &excited &whatever now, like how i do in the past.
To cut the long story short.
A level drawing nearer.
&i'm dreading everyday.

Labels: dinner with clique last night, june hols

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Thursday, May 22, 2008;

♥ 5/22/2008 02:20:00 AM

Becos love is a strange &funny thing>>

Career fair brings the 'aunty' out of the clique girls! :D
So embarrassing! We were struggling with the heavy load of brochures &handbooks from each individual booth.I don't even know why i take so many of them, since my interest doesn't lie with most of them. :\

Past few weeks have been freaky.
'Cos now that As are drawing nearer &nearer. I can't help but to start thinkin bout how my future will be like. Where should/could i head to after JC? &what will be my job in the future?
Although i have my interest, lying somewhere out there. It just felt so out of reach. D:

Things don't used to be like this.
In secondary school, i used to have a clear image of how my future looks like.
The path ahead of me seems clear. I know where i wanna head to. I know which path i should be taking. &i even can imagine myself in my ideal jobscope!
To put it simply, my future used to be clear. Confirmed. Definite.
But things changed. &everything came crashing down when i took a wrong step. D:
Right now, i have no idea how to head to. I have no idea how to go about, reaching for my ideal future.
&to put it simply, my future seems blurred. Blurred.

Terrible.
I even grew so tired of trying to figure a path out for myself, that all i ever wanna do is just to survive til after As.
&i'll either
1) Kill myself &hope that all things will be solved, or
2) Just come what may.

Oh well, but after this career fair, i was 'enlightened', even by a slight teeny bit. (:

Hahah.
We can't deny that sometimes, just thinking bout the subject 'Future' is so mentally tiring, exhuasting &draining, can we?

Labels: Future

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Monday, May 19, 2008;

♥ 5/19/2008 11:22:00 PM

Give me hope
Not candy>>

Hello world. 3 hours of sleep last night killed my brain.
My micro-brain isn't functioning right now.
I hope i can write smth sane in my PQ later on.

I was supposed to wake up at 815 to bathe &get ready to go out. But i woke up at 7 cos of a dream, which i couldn't rmbr. &then i can't get back to sleep. ):
No nice movies available at JEC. Cept of Ayat Ayat Cinta, which i kindly did offer to sponsor the tickets. Heh :D But was hostilely rejected. :\
Uncle monkey caught a flu. Ho ho ho. Get well soon, you!

By the way.
2 pretty tops + a bangle + a necklace + 2packets of sour plum drinks made my day. (:
&my brother's getting ma a pair of Converse sneakers for my belated bday gift! :D That's if i get him the Billabong backpack which he had his eyes on.
&&the weather's such a jerk recently. I think smth terribly is wrong with Mother Earth. Get well soon too!
&&&i'm having mixed feelings about school holidays. No more waking up at unearthly hour for dreadful school, that's a yay. I wannt sleep for a full week without waking up. :D But i'll be seeing less of the classmates &clique. Oh bummer, let's still meet up during the holidays hokay? (:
&&&check out the section under 'HER'. I made a new poem blog. :D

Situation in China still remains. From digging out survivors, it's more of pulling out dead cold corpse &preventing them from infection. :\
Continue to keep them in your prayers!

Disappointment + disappointment.
But it doesnt matter, does it? ;

Labels: 3 hours of sleep, China's earthquake

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Sunday, May 18, 2008;

♥ 5/18/2008 06:40:00 AM

Times like these, i wish raindrops would fall
To cover my tears>>

I'll get out of this (i hope).

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Saturday, May 17, 2008;

♥ 5/17/2008 06:00:00 PM

Can it be
That i'm falling for you the second time>>

"Compassvale Secondary school is organizing a blood drive in Seng Kang Community Centre together with Bloodbank on 5 July."
;I was so excited when i received this email! :D Cos i really wanted to donate bloood regularly!
But i checked out the Thank You card presented to me, the last session when i donated blood. It states this " (blahblahblah) You are eligible to donate blood from 11 July 2008." ):
&so, i thought that afew days doesn't matter. But my uncle said it does! D: D:

By the way, it was sports meet ytd. We managed to stop rp from going to the sickbay. :D Though throughout the whole session, she was complaining. (:
But it's cool! Mostly cos of the fact that lessons were canclled that day. :D
Huili rp hf &i wanted to participate in the tug-of-war, since bingqi approached us. But i guess we were a tad too late, cos we wanted to see aaron run. (: So by the time we reached the pc porch, there were more than enough people. :\
But its okay, at least we managed to see aaron run. :D
I think benjamin's cool. He's the last man standing at the end of the rope, &i tell you, he's really awesome. The classmates who were at the field, were shouting &cheering benja on! The atmosphere feels so great. :D :D Hah, though we lost to winston's house. But aiyah, good enough! (:
Then comes Fartlek! Xinyi went around asking people to join, so huili rp &i decided to give it a go, sine this was our last sports meet.
Aaron &kokyao ran for the Fartlek guys. Aaron was the first runner! &when it's kokyao's turn to run, aaron accompanied him too! I think they look pretty awesome holding onto the 5kg medicine ball &ran, trying to catch up with the other runners. &at the side, you see the rest of the clique guys cheering them on.
I'm telling you, my class guys (esp the clique ones) are really awesome. As irritating and dao as they might be, they're still pretty nice fellows! :D
Rono house got first for Fartlek girls, &third for Fartlek guys.
Okay lah, plus the point that alot of guys fell down with the ball. Bikila males were like guys with iron legs, they ran at the speed of light. Really. Too bad kong's knee was injured, i bet he would have ran if he was alright.
&then comes prize presentation. For both girls &guys, Owens got forth, Bannister got second, Rono got second, Bikila got first (which was pretty expected).
Cheat my feelings! They said sports meet would end at 10plus 11am hokay!
It ended an hour later hokay! :\

After that, aaron bryan beeping &i went down to queensway to settle the class tee again. Thank goodness we leave way before 9pm. :D :D :D
Hah, lunch-ed at the Katong Laska stall makes it seems that we're lunching at China. Don't ask me the link, i don't know why either.
Then we cabbed down to cineleisure to catch the movie 'Harold And Kumar Escape From Guantanamo Bay'. There was once when aaron came towards me, with bryan's ex-link card. Then he said 'you think can pass anot?' That was the funniest, please. Hahah!
The movie's not too bad, with brainless teasers along the show, which makes audience laugh. (: Pretty retarded. But i caught it with good company. So i guess, that equals things out. :D
Here's The Square Root of 3 from the movie
:"I fear that i will always be
A lonely number like root three.
The three is all that's good and right
Why must my three keep out of sight.

Beneath the vicious square root sign.
I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick
With just some quick arithmetic.
I
know I'll never see the sun, as 1.7321.
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality.
When hark! What is this I see?
Another square root of a three.

As quietly co-waltzing by
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer
Rejoicing as an integer.

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands.
Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed."
Nice poem! I love poems! (:

&yay! Aaron was nice, he took my suggestion bout taking bus 14 down to dover mrt, before taking train home! &beeping &bryan were nice enough, to go along with this suggestion too.
See? I told you my friends were awesome. :D

By the way, situation weren't improving much in China.
Death toll continue to increase, &it might even raised to 50,000!
Clean, pure drinking water were no longer available, &instead, they were down to only dirty, mud water.
There were no homes to stay in. People live on the streets.
Fields, open space &even table-tennis tables were used to place the dead bodies.
I've been praying, have you?

Cos i'm telling you, i could just melt in your arms.
Cos i'm begging you, dont drop me from heaven;

Labels: China's earthquake, i have awesome friends (:, Sports meet 2008

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Thursday, May 15, 2008;

♥ 5/15/2008 05:23:00 AM

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die>>

Here we are enjoying whatever rewards that life brings.
Here we are complaining bout parents being naggy, or children being so irritating, or siblings being such buggers.
Here we are whining over the slightest misfortune that we encountered.
Here we are, on the safe land of our dearest Singapore.
I hope y'all out there havent forgotten about those casualites who are suffering &devastated over the loss of their friends or family members.
www.redcross.org.sg
Schools collapsed. Buildings crashed. People burried alive.
School ground became the laying place for the dead students.
What a tragedy.

Keep them in your prayers.
For you never know how powerful a prayer may be.

Labels: China's earthquake

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008;

♥ 5/14/2008 07:13:00 AM

Six AM, the clock is ringing
I need to spend, an hour snoozing>>

Y'know, i've been thinking quite alot lately.
I was just wondering, if i had _____________, maybe i'll be ____________.
I'll make _____________, &maybe life won't be such a ___________.
If i had done __________, maybe things wont be in such a ___________.

Owells, it's just one of these days when you wish you can hit the 'RESTART' button, &have everything fall into the intital place they were afew thousands years ago.
But aiyah! Sure cannot one, i tell you.

Labels: loads of _________

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Monday, May 12, 2008;

♥ 5/12/2008 05:35:00 AM

Say it isn't so, tell me you're not leaving
Say you'll change your mind now &i'm only dreaming
That this is not goodbye, this is starting over
Say i'm not wide awake
If you wanna know, i don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so.

Nights like these seem to take a million years before it will end.
&i've no company, just my tears.
People grow up, &out of their 'down' moments.
I hope i'm not the expection.

G'nights.
Y'all will always gonna be the ones in my heart;

Labels: Say it isn't so

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Saturday, May 10, 2008;

♥ 5/10/2008 06:53:00 AM

My london, london bridge wanna fall down>>

It's friday! Marking the end of yet another insane week in school. (:
But then again, it's just another week closer to the dreadful As. ):
I dont know why we're all suffering under the stress that As bring. It's just, so irritating! :\
Please, i seriously have no idea what a tertiary education stands for.
Well, we can definitely do without it.

Subway with the girls after school on mon.
Subway with some classmates after school today.
Subway again tmr?

Oh goodness, Subway's really getting into me.
Hahah, i tend to get really infatuate with things (food or people or objects or whatever).
&when i'm into something/someone. Boy, i'm really into them.
Ask the mates i hang around with how much i kept chanting bout 'Jellyfish' sushi! :D
Yummy. My mouth's agreeing, my stomach's happy. My body's frustrated &upset. ):
FATTY WOOBLE.

Oh yeah, check out this new family. (:
The clique girls got them after our subway meal on mon. It's so expensive! ):
I said mine looks retarded. Then my girls went 'okay lah. That's why we're getting them.'

:D Mine's the monkey btw! It's called 'Keykey'. In fact, they all have funy weird retarded names which we thought of during bio prac the next day. (:
Weird keychains, awesome friends.
I can't complain, can i? :D

(: Oh yeah, i meet up with quek &sy at boonlay control station for awhile today! :D
Everytime quek &i meet up, we never fail to bring up our scores. Hahah. (:
Batchmates seems pretty awesome too!
Sad that i can't fork out the time to always hang around with them though. :\

I just realised my post is mde up of chunks of random thoughts, where there isn't exactly any links between them.

Memories like the ones i have, they keep me in an awkward situation.
I'm glad for them, cos they pull me through the dark times. I'm glad for them, cos i know that for once in my life, i've experienced them before.
I'm sad for them. Cos they're the ones which make letting go/giving up so hard. :\
This whole week has been rather __________.
I reckon i should get some sleep tonight. (:

I just want you to know, that i've been fighting to let you go.
Some days i'll make it thru. &then there're nights that never end.

Labels: random, subway

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Wednesday, May 07, 2008;

♥ 5/07/2008 11:47:00 PM

But i can wait forever>>

Life is pretty uninteresting recently.
Everything seem to fall into an ugly phrase of routine, which i really dread.
Nth major &new seems to be happening.
Nth that i'm really happy about. &nth which i'm really sad about.
Well. there're always two sides to a coin.

Cos i could melt in your arms;

Labels: routine

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Monday, May 05, 2008;

♥ 5/05/2008 06:08:00 AM

I was blown away, what could i say
It all start to make sense>>

With chemistry tutorial, maths assignments/tutorials, &everything else on my back.It's truly a wonder why i even had the mood to blog. (:
Hahah, so does that mean i create wonders? :D

Anyways, details bout the surprise party's on huili's blog! :D
What she did not mention, &doesnt know, is the pain &efforts &sweat &phone calls &trip to jp &me sitting under the bloody hot sun at the tennis court waiting for aaron des benja to join us who ps us!
&of cos, the lonely moments i spent with myself while waiting for two super late comers, the sweat we all shared at the Residents' Corner cos there weren't any fan, the hiliarious moments bryan had over the phone with canadian pizza, the mess we all had (with aaron benja ky des zw) over scotchtapes for decrations.
&mm, well. Almost everything behind the scenes. (:

My dearest girl.
It's heartbreaking to see your tears flow down &down, yet i/we cant do anything to stop them. ):
It's heartbreaking to see a close friend being so down &sad, yet i/we felt so useless just sitting by your side.
It's heartbreaking to know that you're feeling oh-so-down on the inside, yet i/we just don't have what it takes to make the sun shine again in your world.

But dear girl, do know that we'll always be here for you. &even if we're not there by your (physically), rmbr that we're always just a msg again!

I really hope you enjoyed that surprise party, though there were so many ~~bloody~~ loopholes. Hahah, trust me! We really tried covering as many of them as we could alr!
But anyways, i do hope that party makes you smile a little, right straight from your heart.

All that's been said, are said.
I believe you know that we all love you. (:
But i trust that you just don't know how much we love you.
So, don't be sad alr dear! :D

Pictures! (which are really limited.)

Anyways, here are some random thoughts.
People don't judge you on your feelings &emotions. In fact, people dont exactly gives a hoot about how you feel at times.
They judge you based on how you act, &how you're feeling on the outside.
Superficial.
Sorry bout that, but this seems to be the word that the world revolves about.

Sometimes, moments like these made me feel like standing up.
Stop holing back, &stand up for my happiness.

Labels: huili's surprise party, random

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Friday, May 02, 2008;

♥ 5/02/2008 08:10:00 AM

I dream
I can run like the wind, &be strong>>

I went blog hopping.
I read alot of my sec school friends' blogs.
I miss those times we spent in the good ol' Fairfield.
I miss the fact that everything's falls so nicely &neatly into place.
I miss the fact that we're all so close.
I miss the fact that we know one another for a long 4 (or some even 10!) years.
I miss the fact that, we're just together. (:

I know, friends do come &go.
Old friendships might fade, while the new friendships are being forged.
But that can't stop me from missing them. (:
I'm not being emo here! I'm just being more sensitive to the inner feeling inside of me, which is most prolly the reason why i even bother posting this post. :\

Anyways, huili's surprise party took place just now. I hope everyone had fun. (:
More details another day, cos i'm dead tired &i'm suffering from gastrics. Serves me right for not indulging in kfc &pizzas. ):

Oh bummer. I still miss my friends. :\

Labels: huili's surprise party, i miss my friends (really), i'm not emo

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.